My Two Black Dogs one Metaphor one literal

I have two Black Dogs in my life, one that wakes me up in the morning one that keeps me awake at night.

‘The Black Dog’ is a term that Winston Churchill used to describe his depression, it’s a metaphor for a disorder that casts a shadow that is constantly lurking in the background.
My other Black Dog is bright eyed and full of enthusiasm for me, I walk him and he’s always happy to see me, I talk to him and he patiently listens giving the impression he’s never judging just happy to be hanging out.
I’ve struggled with depression for years  I’m in a much better place than I’ve been for years but as I’ve said it’s shadow is constantly in the background.
This past year has been hard mentally and physically, I’ve faced challenges brought on in part from my own neglect of my physical problems.
I caught an image of myself on CCTV today and I didn’t recognise what was looking back, it’s not some metaphor this time, when I saw the chubby balding guy waddling around on screen it took me a while to realise it was me.
I feel a shell of myself this year has taken it’s toll and it’s eroded my confidence, I once again feel I’m wearing a mask pretending everything is ok but it’s not I’m sad and sometimes even in a room full of people I feel isolated.
My self belief has diminished and so is my faith in the world, I’ve always been proud of shouting about the great work people are doing but sometimes the screams of those who hate are deafening.
But then I turn to that other dog, he’s playful and mischievous but I feel unconditional love from Man’s Best Friend.
I’m not writing this as a cry for pity I’m writing this because I am ok, I can talk about my problems and my fears I feel isolated but I know I’m not alone, and I also know I’m not alone in these feelings so anyone suffering don’t suffer alone
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How can you go back home when your in your home country whether you’re born there or not

Just recently we have seen Donald Trump tweet some quite frankly racist things, now some have been beating around the bush and while some have been slow to condemn it others are struggling to call this out for what it is.


The Tweet’s in question where aimed at a group of four non-white Democratic Congresswomen known as “The Squad” he tweeted that they should “go back where they came from ” all four are US citizens with only one of them Ilhan Omar being born outside the US having settled in the US in 1997 as a refugee from Somalia.
Trump’s attacks seem to try to empower his supporters that somehow these women are an affront to American Values and somehow hate their country, but the truth is the opposite they are serving their country trying to make it better. The words of James Baldwin “I love America more than any Country in this world and,  exactly for this reason I insist on the right to criticize her perpetually ” seem to fit this situation.
The from Trump prompted a chant of “Send her back” from his supporters at a rally which you can clearly see him basking in but he now claims disagreed with.
The response and reaction has prompted many feelings in me, although an ocean away in another country the “Go Back Home” is familiar to my ears.
Like many Black and Brown people I’ve heard this or had it phrased at me in many ways.
I’m mixed race and born and raised in England but I’ve been told to “go back to Africa ” or ” go back home ” or “get back to where you come from ” as many people of colour have faced, as well as the old classics ” you must be used to this heat where you come from ” and variations on that.
While the latter statement is not aggressive they all tie into the same thing this thought that some hold that Black/Brown =foreign
But even if I did originate from another country if I’d settled here than this would be my home and it’s not for a neanderthal to tell me where to live.
This is a worrying trend and just links in with the empowerment that those who spread hate seem to feel because of the rhetoric of Trump.
The other worrying trend I keep seeing is white people telling people of colour what they can and can’t be offended at
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Assault – Meredith Road Ipswich

Police are appealing for witnesses after a man was assaulted in Ipswich last week.

The incident occurred at around 3pm on Wednesday 15 May at a bus shelter in Meredith Road.

The victim – aged in his 20s – was waiting for a bus when he was approached by a man who grabbed his face and then put him a headlock-style hold and shouted at him. Another man who appeared to be known to the suspect then shouted at him to stop.

The victim did not suffer any injuries as a result of this incident, but caused him pain and left him shaken.

The suspect is described as white, aged in his 40s, short, of a large build, with grey hair which was straight at the sides and curly on top. He was wearing a blue jacket, dark blue tracksuit bottoms and white trainers.

Officers would like to hear from any witnesses to the incident and are also keen to trace the man who shouted at the suspect to stop.

Anyone with information is asked to contact Ipswich West Safer Neighbourhood Team on 101 quoting reference 28123/19, or by providing an online update via the constabulary

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Reflection on the response after the tragic terrorist attack in New Zealand

I’ve had some reflection after the tragic terrorist attack in New Zealand and while the majority of people have been universal appalled some responses have been frankly depressing.

Instead of condemnation some seem to have jumped and latched on to a false equivalent and pushing a narrative of denial

I’ve seen people question why Trump has received criticism while after the Pulse terrorist attack in Florida Obama didn’t recive the same thing.

The difference is in Florida the murder who was Muslim targeted the LGBT community, prior to that Obama had not stood on an anti LGBT platform and the shooter had not praised him or mentioned him in his manifesto.

In New Zealand the shooter has praised Trump who has clearly stood on an anti Muslim platforn and has been slow in his criticism of White Supremacists and has empowered them with his rhetoric and actions.

Another thing I’ve seen is some pushing this idea that the New Zealand shooter is not Far Right or White Supremacist and in fact is a left wing environmental terrorist, this false narrative is well and truly sticking the head in the sand to the issues of the rise in hate and prejudice and the danger the far right poses, he clearly openly calls himself a white supremacist and has links to far right groups.

Another thing is comparing the response to attacks around the world on other faith groups, ideally all these would get equal coverage but the way the media works is attacks in Europe, USA,Australia and New Zealand will get more coverage then Africa, India and Pakistan that doesn’t mean it’s a conspiracy to keep these incidents under wraps.

I would of liked to have focused on the moving images of a communuty coming together, the Jewish community in Pittsburgh rasing funds for the victims, the Maori biker gang doing the Haka and the countless tales of bravery and sacrifice by the victims but I felt I had to get this of my chest

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Adair Road Post Office

Important information about Adair Road Post Office – 651 Bramford Road, Ipswich, IP1 5BD

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Shed burglary – Byron Rd Ipswich

Police are appealing for information after a shed burglary in Ipswich at the end of last week.

The shed at a home in Byron Road was broken into sometime between 10.30pm Thursday 21st & 11am Friday 22nd February. Once inside, a Playstation 4 games console and cash were stolen from inside.

If you have any information about /this burglary please contact Suffolk Police on 101 quoting crime reference 37/10869/19 or use the online crime reporting link –

Advice on shed & garage security can be found on the Suffolk Police or via this link –

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Music on the Barge

On Friday, 26th April 2019, the Mayor of Ipswich, Councillor Jane Riley, will be hosting a “Music on the Barge”  event at the Ipswich Waterfront in aid of the Mayor’s Charity  –  The Suffolk Law Centre.

Come and join her on-board the historic Sailing Barge Victor for an amazing night of music from local musicians Holly D Johnson and Exit 13.   The Barge has a well-stocked and fully licenced (cash only) Bar, and the evening includes a hearty vegetarian buffet!

Tickets are £15.00 per person (including vegetarian buffet) and can be purchased from the Regent Box Office, the Tourist Information Centre and online via this

Event Times:

7.30pm:                      Doors Open

8.00pm – 9.00pm:       Holly D Johnson

9.00pm:                      Vegetarian Buffet

9.30pm – 10.30pm:     Exit 13

Venue is the Sailing Barge Victor, berthed at the Old Custom House, Ipswich, IP4 1BY.   Music on the Barge is a ‘static’ event and the Sailing Barge Victor will remain moored along the quayside for the evening.

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Ipswich Museums disability access panel

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Ipswich Museums disability access panel

Ipswich Museums  have set up three panel groups which will give local people a way to shape what the museums in Ipswich do and how we work.

The panels will discuss and shape the events programme, exhibitions and gallery text, as well as any physical access issues. It will reflect the needs, priorities and interests of local people, based on your varied experience and perspectives.

The disability access panel will be held at Ipswich Museum on 25 February from 2-3.30pm, when we will be talking about the Ipswich Museum redevelopment.

For more information or to register your interest in joining the panel, please email or call on 01473 433570

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Jussie Smollett

I’m angry at the Jussie Smollett situation,


I was genuinely concerned when I heard the reports of his racist and homophobic attack, concerned for all those who had faced this before and will face it in the future.

Then I was stunned when it was reported it could of been faked, waiting for the facts to come out something I didn’t do before because of my confirmation bias and how this act reinforced my world view that hate and prejudice is on the rise.

This act this fakery has a damaging effect, it now gives the far-right and Fox News an excuse to dismiss and diminish the fact that hate is on the rise and that people like Trump do embold and empower those who commit it


A Coast Guard lieutenant who was arrested last Friday on gun and drug charges is alleged to be a white supremacist who had a hit list that included prominent Democratic politicians as well as several journalists

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“killer” car seats for sale


From Suffolk Trading Standards

This week the BBC reported on what was dubbed as “killer car seats” being sold on platforms such as Amazon and eBay.

The consumer group Which? have found that although the seats had been removed from sale in 2014 after tests showed they lacked the support needed to protect babies and toddlers, the seats had repeatedly re-appeared for sale on online marketplaces ever since.

The fabric seats, which can cost as little as £8, offer almost no protection in a crash and are illegal to use in the UK.

Approved seats carry a clear orange label with the codes ECE R44-03, ECE R44-04 or ECE R129 to indicate they have been put through EU safety testing and can therefore be legally sold on the UK market.

See the full BBC report here

If you see a dangerous car seat being sold, or have purchased one that you have concerns about, please contact Trading Standards via the national Citizens Advice Consumer Service helpline on 03454 040506.

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